Small Complications - Chapter One

Unattractive and Bobby D. were not words that people used in the same sentence, and tonight was definitely not an exception to this rule. In his Ralph Lauren tuxedo; Bobby was in ‘all eyes on me’ mode tonight. Though he glowed on the outside, his inside was in utter turmoil.
“Come on man, pull it together” he told himself. “This is supposed to be the happiest day of your life.”
Bobby D. was getting married, and if you know anything about Bobby you know that everything had to be picture perfect, and it was. The Third Street Baptist Church was filled to capacity with everybody who was anybody. This was without a doubt the event of the year.
More... Bobby and his bride were a vision of loveliness as they stood before family, friends and God to declare their commitment of love. Understandably there was a little nervousness but Bobby had never experienced shaky knees before today. There was a slight perspiration shine to his face – but he blamed it on the lights. He looked over at his best man who sent a reassuring wink his way. He then looked over at his mother who was crying; he could still hear her saying that she never thought she’d see that day that somebody made an honest man out of her baby boy. Bobby was happy that his momma was proud of him. He Looked over to Brenda; his bride-to-be who was arguably the happiest person in the room. He could remember her asking time and again if he was ever going to make a ‘real’ commitment to her. Everybody was happy now. And Bobby was happy too, because he stood in a room filled with happy people.
Now Bobby turned to look at the Pastor. He could see the Holy Man’s lips moving but he couldn't hear a sound. Bobby must have momentarily slipped into a world all his own; where time and space ceased to exist. In this world there was only Bobby and his thoughts. Thoughts about his beautiful wife, their lovely one year old daughter, and how happy they all were. And how they were about to spend the rest of their lives together.
Bobby's dream world was shattered as he felt his best man nudge him. It was time to come back to reality for Bobby. It was time for him to recite his vows.
His expression painted a picture of limitless joy and he probably fooled everyone there, but he could not convince himself that this marriage was not possibly the biggest mistake he had ever made…

Stay tuned for the next episode…

POETRY - Taking Chances...

I was hiding in a world of stone
But living within a glass house
Invisible to none but me
Screaming without a single sound
Everyone new just who I was
Though I kept on changing hats
I was searching for the missing me
But couldn’t find it with a map...More...

In the darkness of your lovely eyes
I think I finally saw the light
Explosive calm pulling me inside
And It was pointless for me to fight
You were the feast that I'd beenstarving for
The water to quench the flame
All of the love that I'd ever wanted
Without the hurts to which I was to blame

I had fallen off the cliffs of you
Into the joy of being afraid
The closer I began to get to you
The less I remembered my own name
The stone temple is no longer my God
Its been replaced with... I haven't a clue
I still don’t know who the hell I am
I only know now that I’m in love with you

I have torn apart my flesh and bone
And exposed to you my heart
Giving everything that gives me life
Bleeding to death as I do my part
I wasn’t cut out for this type of game
You won it all and got MVP
And I just lost as I just always do
Now I’m no longer here for you or me


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